Tuesday, April 14, 2009


Not too long ago, less than 3 years ago, I find myself sitting in a waiting room. The office is underground because of the radiation machines. It is cold, as expected, and I am currently not in a good mood because it happens to also be 8 in the morning on a saturday. Despite the fact that I had to withdraw from second semester of my freshman year, I still have friends in Los Angeles and I would rather be hanging out with them than waiting in a cold dark room with old magazines, and older people. Regardless of my current state and my current predicament, I am in a cranky mood, too cranky now that I look back on that day.
I have been sitting for about fifteen minutes before I see someone out of the corner of my eye. The majority of the people I am in the room with have to be over 60 years old, at least, but I happen to see a very small boy sitting in the waiting room playing with those toys that are in all waiting rooms with the beads sliding around these pipe things (you know what I am talking about). Me and the boy had one of those moments when you accidentally make eye contact with someone then the people instantly look away. I looked away but the boy didnt. In fact he came up to me, which shocked me. If I had been on the outside looking in, I probably did not look like someone who wanted ANYONE to talk to him, let alone a kid. I started off being a little annoyed but then I came face to face with him. He didnt have any hair, was frail looking and teeth that most assuredly need braces later in his life. "What color are you?" He asked. I was perplexed and didnt know how to answer the question. "Excuse me?" Again he asked, "what color are you?" This time he held up an action figure of what I recall was the blue power ranger. Not the blue ranger from my generation but one of the newer ones I assumed. I looked down and in the boy's lap was a collection of power ranger toys, no pink or yellow ones of course. I gathered that he was asking me what color ranger I wanted to be, already having the assumption that I would want to play with him. I thought "what confidence this boy has." I later thought about this and realized that I was the only person in the room even remotely close to his age and he sure as hell didnt want to play a boys game with his mother. I had about another 20 minutes till my session started and I thought, "why not, who am I trying to impress here?"
As we start our mini adventure, which mostly involves throwing the toys across the room or at other toys set up, we start a debate about which generation of Power Rangers was the best (mine was of course the better generation, we had Jason, and Tommy for Christ sake.) He marvels at the fact that there were people way before the ones he knew that donned the multicolored uniforms. I dont even realize that 20 minutes passes, my name is called. I say goodbye to my new friend and hand him back his toy. As I lay on the table shirtless, I realize that the metal table isnt as cold as it usually is...

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


I feel that I should take advantage of my first really good mood in a long time. As I look to my left and see the look of disgust on the person's face sitting next to me I cant help but think, "wow, I type very loudly." But I digress...
Whats the purpose of everything? Why are we here? What are we supposed to do? As far as I am concerned there are many answers one could give. Some greatly encouraging while the others are just a tad depressing. Being the kind of guy that I am, I will take the road of the optimist. I often spend many hours thinking of such questions (as I am a man with a lot of time on his hands) and have come up with a few answers that make myself see things just a little brighter. I am a firm believer in living for yourself. Now this may initially come off a little selfish but hear me out. The time we have on this earth is way too short and if this time is spent living for someone else or fearing some higher power, then our time was truly wasted. Live for you, and do you. I believe that we were put on this planet to enjoy ourselves. We look back on times we took chances and went on a whim rather than the times we were overly cautious and were worried about the thoughts of others. Live in the moment, because that is all life is, is a series of moments. The more you grab the more life becomes enjoyable I have learned. Open up to people! Make connections! Find that soulmate that you have been looking for. FIND LOVE! It does exist and it IS out there, there just is no conventional form. Thinking what could have been is NOT a fun thought to have! Rather deal with the short term embarrassment than spend your life thinking, "what if?"
Let your thoughts be your own. The input of your friends and others is an important part in some facets of life but in the end you must make your own decisions. Do not agree or disagree to something because your friends think its cool or not cool. This is your life, not theirs. I may seem like I am ranting but I have seen way too many times where people could have benefited with having such an idea in their head.
BE HAPPY! LOVE PEOPLE! LOVE LIFE! You are lucky enough to live in a place where you have control of your own destiny. You have the power to make your life as happy or as sad as you want it to be.

I do not write this to dictate how one should live their lives. That is not my place nor is this the blog to read how to do so. But I do believe in these things strongly and I wanted to share these ideas with you, the readers. And even though you may not take anything from this, hopefully I have the privilige of putting a smile on your face. If not you know where to find me. Im not hard to find, Im that dude with a huge smile on his face wearin dem oakley shades!

Sunday, April 5, 2009


On this beautiful sunday there is not much to report as everyone is probably being as lazy as I am, so why not start a new addition to the blog, something I like to call "Jay Eye's Thoughts" from my brain to your eyes. This is a chance for me to get personal with you readers. Read if you like or if this aint your cup of tea, just skip ahead to the other stuff.

-Just to start off, it was great seeing Eminem return to the spotlight in such a way, not for himself but to honor music legends. I do believe that this will be a very good next few years for Marshall Mathers. I think we should all be very excited for whats to come.
-Foam Party's are the fucking shit!!!! I DJ'd my first this weekend and I can honestly say it is madness. This form of partying should happen a lot more and on much bigger scales perhaps?
-Should DJ's start playing Chris Brown music again? This is a very interesting topic that I feel I should address. I just want to establish that I was and still am absolutely disgusted with the actions of Chris Brown. There have been different stories of who started what and he said/she said, but this does not matter. I dont care if the girl threw a brick at him, you do not lay your hands on a woman...EVER. But then one has to take into consideration, how long must we dwell on this and how long until we, as the fans, forgive him? I am a man who believes in forgiveness and I do believe that people can change. While I am mortified by his actions, do I believe Chris Brown is sorry for his actions? ABSOLUTELY! But is he sorry for the right reasons? People say that when woman beaters get caught, its most likely never the first time. So is he sorry for what he did, or is he sorry that he got caught? We will probably never know but until he shows some signs of remorse and signs of becoming a better person because of these past events, then I think that we should still not support him. I cant say what these actions are but when they come, we will know.
-I will be returning home for easter this weekend, a time I usually look forward to. Ever year my family has had a huge Easter Party on sunday. Sadly, this year will be the first time in a while we will not have this party. The reason for this, as Im sure many of you know, because of TMZ's great compassion for family privacy, that my father and mother are going through a divorce. Now I am not here to focus on my particular case but rather the issue of divorce in general. If we lived in a perfect world, each marriage would end in happiness and each person would be able to stay with their husbands/wives till the day they die. This, unfortunately/fortunately, however you look at it, this is not reality. I am not saying divorce is an essential way of life but I do believe that if the magic is lost and the couple do not feel that they can be together anymore, then you cant expect them to fake it or waste their time living a lie. Also if you feel that you need to end your marriage, if you have children, please keep it civil. If not for your sake then your kid's. If you are going to get a divorce, please keep a few things in mind. DO NOT fight in front of the kids, even though its not their fault, they will feel it is is. Also, really try to remain friends with your former husband/wife. This means hanging out with each other on birthdays/ballgames/recitals/ etc. This will mean the world to your children. Im not asking you to stay with your significant other if you feel that the love isnt there anymore, but if your going to go through such an ugly situation, please try to make it the best situation you can.

Well thats it, my thoughts of the day. Take it how you want. Should this be a part of the blog? A peak into my mind every so often? Well I enjoyed writing it, if you dont enjoy reading it, like I said, just skip to the parts you do like.